These are some things that I have known to be true but now more than ever I can say that yes, children are a blessing!  Yes,  I would love to have more blessings!  No, I'm not crazy to say this (scared but not crazy)!  Never ever take those trips to the doctor for granted.  You are not guaranteed a healthy baby just because all the other ones were.  Death is real and it is SAD and it is HARD.  The loss of a child is worse than I ever imagined it could be even at 19 weeks.  Time makes things a bit easier even though the loss is still there and it still hurts deeply.  Life is hard to understand but God is merciful and gives me grace for the day. I fail miserably at being a wife and Mom but my desire is still there.  My desire to teach my kids to Love the Lord.   To Love God and follow him, the most important thing!!!!  To be an example to really live what I say that's the hard part.  To be respectful to my husband, to be patient with 7 needy people, to love others and help my husband as much as I can in the ministry he is in.  That's the hard part too. I'm not the best housekeeper or the best cook or the best friend or for that matter just fill in the blank with tons of stuff but I desire to improve!  Not just sit and dwell on it but to actually do better and improve.  I've got lots of work ahead of me.  Now to pull out all those "self help" books I love to read!  I'm coming up on 15 years of being a stay at home Mom!  Wow!!!!  Can't believe it has been that long.  Can't believe all those times I have complained and griped about this or that when I should have been praising God for allowing me to stay home and growing our family.  Not that I haven't been thankful but I just need to express that thanks to him more than complaining over such petty unimportant things.  After 15 years I look back and see how blessed I am.   I hope to grow this year in my relationship with God through prayer and Bible reading, to grow closer to my husband who is a wonderful leader in our home and to love on my sweet little and big ones that I get to spend each day with.   My life might be looked at as boring, stressful, uneventful but what I see is love, contentment, joy, fun, never dull and never ever boring.  Simplicity at its best!  So thankful for a simple joyful life!   


Lynda said...

Wait until you get my age and think of all the things you wish you had done differently. However, we can't look in the rear view mirror too often. We need to face forward and look through the windshield where we are going. Just keep on keeping on and do your best at it. You doing LOTS & LOTS better than you know. Time will continue to show it.

The Munck Family said...

Ah sweet friend, lessons in life...never are easy! Thankfully we do have the LORD and sweet husbands to hold us up. You are in my thoughts and prayers, God has great things in store for you...I just know He does. Your to special for Him not to :)
Hugs & love,